Brinley is feeling better this week, although the steroids seem to be lingering in the form of roid rage, Brinley has been really difficult the last day or two. I always start thinking it's "her", then two weeks after steroids are done she returns to her normal happy-for-the-most-part self. She is so excited to have only one treatment left. She keeps punching the air and saying "I BEAT cancer! I'm so tough!"
It's always hard to write about what I'm doing, I guess I figure you don't come here to hear about me. But I think this one is post-worthy.
The first thing I will reclaim is my health. Since Brinley's diagnosis, I managed to put on 24 pounds. Twenty-four pounds!! That is more than I have ever weighed in my life! And so I avoid looking at mirrors, and pictures, anything that shows what I really look like. I mean, really, when you are trying to focus on saving your child's life, who the %!&@ cares what your backside looks like?! Right?? The saving her life thing, that kinda takes over...
The second item of reclamation....(is that even a word? Dad?) MY HOUSE!! Cancer took over that in a jiffy too! Now that Brinley is in pre-school I actually have 6 hours a week to myself (naptime for Mylee) and that time will be used to put my house back to functional. It will be a process, piece by piece, but I'll get there. I know I'll always have my off days, but I am looking forward to "off" days as not being EVERY day.