Well, here we are, in 2009, hard to believe. It's been a hard week for me. Usually looking back on a year, our family talks about what a great year it has been. This year was different. With a job loss and leukemia finding it's way into our lives this year, it's been a less than great year for us. David was able to talk about good things that happened this year, but I was a bit of a pessimist, I must admit. The hard thing is, I pretty much expect next year to be harder. Not without blessings, I can always find those, but just a hard year. It's been too much to even think about. When we made our new years resolutions, it was really hard. All I really want from this year is to survive the year with our family still in tact. Is that a worthy resolution? Just to survive the year? Does anyone have a remote so I can fast forward through? Lol, just kidding.

These last 4 days have been not so good for me emotionally. I've been feeling pretty cruddy, actually. But then I got a call from my ob/gyn with the results of my blood sugar test, and the nurse said my blood came back very anemic. Apparently that's not good when you are about to lose a bunch of blood giving birth....so they are pumping me full of iron to bring it up in the next couple months. That was actually good news for me, now at least I know there is a physical explanation to why I'm so tired and yucky all the time lately. I'm not prone to depression, actually the last time I remember being depressed and seeing a doctor was when I was a teenager, and they found out I was anemic then too. LOL. Soooo, the iron should help with that.
Brinley is doing fine. We start DI next week, that's another reason I'm feeling this way. I don't want her to start DI! I'm am dreading it. The steroids, the feeling sick all the time. I don't want that to all come back. It's a 2 month phase, and I have no idea what it will bring for my little Brinley. I just pray she will get through it unscathed.
I DO want to wish everyone a very happy new year. It really is a great time of year. Hope all is well with all of you!

5 comments:

Stacy said...

Kristin - I am sorry that things have been rough the past couple of days. We are glad you guys came down to see us on New Years Eve. That was fun and i hope it lifted you up a bit. I hope the iron works. Also i can think of one huge blessing for this next year - A NEW BABY. That will be so great. I know that makes things harder but what a sweet spirit will come to your home soon. And Brinley is so cute with Marissa now - a couple of months ago Brin didn't want anything to do with Marissa and now she is so sweet to her. That is a good sign! Hang in there. JD and I wish there was something we could do to make life easier - please let us know if you can think of anything. Love you guys!

Meghan Seely said...

I'm not sure if you know who I am or not, just a friend of Dennis'. I just wanted you to know I've been following your blog, and you are in my prayers. I want so much to help you and your family, and I know the only way I can do that is by keeping you in my thoughts. I know the Lord is watching over you and your family. I didn't realize you were pregnant until I read this last blog. That is so wonderful - I know you will receive much love and many blessings from this as well. Again, just wanted you to know you are loved - even by those you don't see, or even know of!

Amie said...

Just wanted to let you know that you made my 2008. You all took such good care of Landon and I can't thank you enough!

Marion said...

Depression is a tough one and oh so real. My prayers are with you not only for a good year ahead but for the iron to work miracles, too. Be careful of those thoughts that have no light in them. Truly they are from "the dark side of the force."

Wendy said...

Hugs, I so remember those terrified thoughts as we entered DI with Kaden over a year and a half ago. It was hard, not a surprise I'm sure, but it was easier than induction. Don't forget to reflect each day and find the good. There will be those cute smiles, the cuddle time, and of course for you the cute new baby in 2009. We will continue to pray for your family.

Just as an aside, Kaden is 2 years into treatment, and things are fairly normal with him now. The day will come when you forget for a moment that she is sick. Hugs to you and your family.